I do not know why I never post to this or any blog, guess I am busy. Busy doing what? Playing Farmville, running after my 2 year old, Cleaning up after my 2 year old and well life. I am a stay at home Mom and you would think I had all the time in the world...NOT
As a Stay At Home Mom I get all the shopping and when I say shopping I don't mean the fun kind more like the crap kind. Grocery shopping,buying new underwear and socks for my husband kind of shopping. I also have to take my daughter to every doctor/dentist/eye/play dates/you name it appointment. I do all the house cleaning,decorating and cooking. Oh and I am the one that makes sure we do not run out of toliet paper, toothpaste or cheese and milk. I am the event planner for every birthday, anniversary, holiday etc. I am also the personal shopper for my husbands family and friends. There is more yes more! I have to find time to take my butt to the doctors, spend time with my older kid and well in the end I fail to take care of me.
All the experts say take time for yourself...yeah right how??? I am lucky to get a shower with out my 2 year old CB running around the bathroom. Did I mention it is the same if I go pee! I get my hair cut when it starts to get so bad I am tempted to shave it off and go bald.
The worst part of this is I don't get paid, holiday's or respect for my position as CEO of family/household. My memories go to when I was a single parent, parenting my now 21 year old young lady,SJ. I worked 50 plus hour weeks, had daycare do my parenting, my house stayed clean and I got a pay check. I was just as busy, but I got respect and was treated like I had a brain.
Before my husband was my husband I was that single working Mom and he respected me. When he spoke with me, he listen and was interested in me. Now my husband treats me as if I had a lobotomy for hysteria or something.
Here is an example of how my husband listens to me. We are watching MTV pranked, we are cracking up at the pranks. I think we are watching together and he even speaks to me! He tells me his favorite prank he has pulled on people and when it comes time for me to give back in the conversation with my favorite prank of all time(a good one) I soon realize he is not listening to one word I say. I stop speaking in mid sentence to be sure...yep he keeps watching TV and yep he does not hear me.
This is common, very common and I use to say something like hey...I hello do you hear me and he would mumble an apology and patronize me with his ears for a moment. Now I just stop talking.
I try to stop thinking so much and just do stuff you know like the shopping,house cleaning etc. It really does not require much thinking anymore just doing. So maybe I have lost some IQ points along the way? Is this why my husband treats me like I am stupid or did being treated like an bimbo make me become one? That is a chicken or the egg question and I can't really think enough about it :)
I would write more but I have to get my daughter CB her paints to finish making her Christmas gifts for the family....
